2019 is going to be a great year because we’re going to make it that way, no more of this “I hope good things come to me” shit, I’m gonna go out and drag good things to me by the fucking hair
“Really, though, the hard part is not the “meh.” The hard part isn’t hearing the words “I can never be your boyfriend” or “We aren’t sure you’re a good match for the company” or “You’re not someone I want to be friends with.” Every person must accept some “meh” into their lives, because even if you face yourself and grow a lot, you’ll still land in that space a million times over. Landing in that space just means that you’re trying new things, meeting new people, having new adventures, and being brave instead of hiding. When you’re broken but you’re trying new things, you will hear echoes of your brokenness. You will feel wobbly. Accept it. The important part comes next: You hear the echoes that sound like “Am I bad? Am I repulsive? Am I doing it wrong again?,” and you try very hard to reassure yourself instead of becoming a human question mark. You say to yourself, “You are good. This is how it feels to be a human being.” Then you take a deep breath, and you feel wide awake and alive. Because you know that you’re okay and everything is fine. You know this because you’ve been talking to other people and really listening (instead of doing all the talking) and you know now that everyone feels a little ashamed and weird and broken sometimes, particularly those people who are reaching for great things.”
